“Don’t you think that even if everyone were just like you, you’d still find a way or a reason to be different, just because?”

This is something my mom has asked me before. I think it’s a nice way to accuse me of being a hipster — which seems like it might not be a concern anymore, because I think it was revealed around 2013 that we were all hipsters? But I thought about this over the past week, when everyone was glued to Twitter and their favorite news sites, waiting for election results. There was a warmth to it, like somehow in 2020 we were all doing something together, but I just couldn’t be bothered to muster strong feelings about it. 

I’m not disconnected from the collective post-election relief or immune to celebration, and I’m not unaware of the depth of joy it brings my parents to see my name, pronounced correctly, in so many places. But as far as I’m concerned, representation doesn’t matter and I don’t really believe in racial progress within American institutions. 

I’m here, after a weekend in which we elected a new president, but also one in which two of my dear friends lost their mother, too early and too fast. She was the kind of woman — not unlike her daughters, not unlike my own mom — who was not easily impressed: a quality I admire. And I am wondering, like my mom has suggested, if I’m just being contrarian about things. Or if, in my own way, I'm holding on to an even bigger hope, saving my excitement for something really big, really worthy of my heart.

Here's to waiting to find out! Thanks for being on this journey <3


A six-split diagonal collage featuring six different Black witches working to dismantle white supremacy and fight racist cops: Mama Sunfiyahh, JujuBae. Bri Luna (The Hoodwitch), Fredericka Turner (Conjuria), Tayannah Lee Mcquillar. And Soulangie Leeper (Òrìsà Child)


Where My Black Witches At? Using Black Ancestral Magic Against White Supremacy by Krista White

A growing generation of Black witches online are joining in the centuries’ long tradition of using ancestral magic, from hexes to binding spells, to protect the Black community and fight white supremacy. And we’re going to know those walls shored up now more than ever.

Seeing the Wind: How It Feels To Be A COVID Nurse by Mary Ann Thomas

COVID has left a lot of us feeling helpless, but Mary Ann captures the particular pain of losing her purpose as a COVID nurse and having to learn to accept care when she needs it most — even if it doesn’t feel earned.

Worried Your Vote Can’t Protect Reproductive Rights? Mutual Aid Can (and Does) by Kylie Cheung

In the wake of Amy Coney Barrett’s appointment to the Supreme Court, there has been very reasonable fear that access to abortions will be even further limited. Kylie highlights the legacy of mutual aid funds that have and will continue to enable access to reproductive health care.

“We Are Who We Are” Doesn’t Do Labels by Kamala Puligandla

While many parts of this HBO show are done carelessly, there is a beautiful fluidity in the portrayal of queer identity, love and friendship between Harper and Fraser.

An Aquatic History of My Family by K-Ming Chang

Land: A Folio is a cool new series on the Asian American Writers Workshop site where writers explore land as a site of legacy and history as well as a way forward. The first is a surreal and evocative story by K-Ming Chang, based on the style of Tayal Taiwanese oral storytelling.

White Allyship Has Maxed Out by David Dennis Jr.

“Over half of all White people in this country, knowing exactly who he is, decided to re-up. And now we know that this is the very best White Americans have to offer us.” This is an excellent summary of the very real dread some of us feel after this election — even without Trump.
While We're Here

👋Lesbian, Bisexual, Queer, and Trans Candidates Won Big Again in State Elections This Year by Natalie

Just in case you missed any, there are some new queer elected officials to celebrate!

🌜Year of Our (Audre) Lorde: October’s Dead Is Behind Us by Jehan

"To be Black in this world is to be intimate with living death. It’s an intimacy no one craves. Black people know that Audre Lorde speaks truth to power when she says 'we were never meant to survive.'" As the days get shorter and the nights grow cold, Jehan uncovers what's really haunting us.

An Intergenerational Panel: Angela Davis & adrienne maree brown

The UC Davis Women’s Resource and Research Center is celebrating 50 years of imagining feminist futures, and this convo seems like it just might blow our minds.
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