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<<First Name>> It's been a few months since I put pen to paper or fingers to a key board and opened my creative writing tap. How tightly bound to my creativity is my self worth and productivity driven satisfaction - (acknowledgement is the first step to changing patterns!)

I've felt myself hermiting. Healing and processing. The realisation that it is the end of December, I've finished work for the year, and I have the next two months to myself. It feels like a vacuum has been broken and a whole lot of fresh air is starting to flood back into me. What an emotional relief.

I've grown tired - feeling like a broken record talking about my Van renovations and engine work. In hindsight I took on an incredible project building my house in wheels, starting with a rusty, leaking house, stripping it beyond it's bare bones and bringing it back to life with a Flossy vibe and design. I've learned how not to lay floorboards, I've learned about insulation and framing out furniture. I've learned that I can pour every cent into a project, live off the smell of an oily rag and still be as happy as a free range pig in shit.

I've also learned that doing that has cost me other experiences - like not seeing my favourite Aunty when she was this side of the world. *sigh* It stung a little bit, because it reminded me of the time I missed out on what would have been the last time I missed seeing my grandmother before she passed. They say hard times teaches me really where I want my priorities to be.  What you say you value vs where you spend your time and energy. It caught up with me and it's been really good to stop and reevaluate. My two months off work could have easily crept up on me and all my plans fallen through. Missing out on something that I really wanted to do, has made me get my shit together this time. Now I am in sunny (but cold) Philadelphia!

I know I set high expectations of myself and what I could accomplish.  But while building a van, working full time and doing lots of traveling - I feel like I let few people down. I've been working through the guilty feelings - a stupid guilty circular spiral. Knowing you have the ability to complete a task vs having the emotional and physical space to do it are two different things.  Learning (to say no) - by failing - that I fall of the radar when I'm not coping. Learning to re-write that pattern, ask for help, plan better, ask for time leniency or smaller projects & forgiveness. It's been a humbling experience. 

I made myself a promise to live an honest life. I feel like I'm realising that that needs to extended to being honest to myself about my capacity. Not over extending or over committing myself. I feel like I've labeled myself an over achiever in regards to my work speed / ethic. Now I am resetting that internal standard to what I am realistically able to handle at one time.

I wanted to be releasing videos, more of my queer tarot cards and being closer to a full tarot deck by now. I set deadlines for myself an promptly panicked. It killed my creativity. I started this project in April 2017. It's now December 2018, almost 2019. I'm still at it. Still shooting cards, haven't begun editing videos.

Being honest with oneself includes not only acknowledging failures but celebrating achievements and milestones too. 

My first winter in 12 months makes taking time to rest, stop reading facebook or Instagram, feel like I'm doing very little - seem so so real and visceral. Slowing down with the seasons, eating seasonal food, sleeping with the hours of daylight, being more introspective.

I want my blog to run like more of an informative magazine, I wanted my tarot project to keep going like a business - but it can't and I can't.  Listening to my body, feeling into what feels good, what makes me happy instead. My joy, my bliss.
I know I set high expectations of myself and what I could accomplish.  But while building a van, working full time and doing lots of traveling - I feel like I let few people down. I've been working through the guilty feelings - a stupid guilty circular spiral. Knowing you have the ability to complete a task vs having the emotional and physical space to do it are two different things.  Learning (to say no) - by failing - that I fall of the radar when I'm not coping. Learning to re-write that pattern, ask for help, plan better, ask for time leniency or smaller projects & forgiveness. It's been a humbling experience. 

I made myself a promise to live an honest life. I feel like I'm realising that that needs to extended to being honest to myself about my capacity. Not over extending or over committing myself. I feel like I've labeled myself an over achiever in regards to my work speed / ethic. Now I am resetting that internal standard to what I am realistically able to handle at one time.

I wanted to be releasing videos, more of my queer tarot cards and being closer to a full tarot deck by now. I set deadlines for myself an promptly panicked. It killed my creativity. I started this project in April 2017. It's now December 2018, almost 2019. I'm still at it. Still shooting cards, haven't begun editing videos.

Being honest with oneself includes not only acknowledging failures but celebrating achievements and milestones too. 

My first winter in 12 months makes taking time to rest, stop reading facebook or Instagram, feel like I'm doing very little - seem so so real and visceral. Slowing down with the seasons, eating seasonal food, sleeping with the hours of daylight, being more introspective.

I want my blog to run like more of an informative magazine, I wanted my tarot project to keep going like a business - but it can't and I can't.  Listening to my body, feeling into what feels good, what makes me happy instead. My joy, my bliss.
I celebrate that my feet have touched SEVEN countries in the last 12 months. 
- New Zealand
- Australia 
- Canada
- USA 
- England
- Ireland
- France

I asked for adventure 

I moved countries
I moved into a vehicle
I asked for time off work
I asked for a job to come back to and got a full time contract for next year.

I asked for freedom

I asked to make real friends
I asked to get to know myself better
I asked to learn how to be in my body
I asked to deepen my spiritual practice 
I asked for community

I got to go to BC witch camp and it blew my mind, and I feel so darn loved by the wonderful creatures in my life right now 

I have made amazing progress on my tarot project 

36 Majors
30 Minors
66 Total cards
73 people photographed

My inner self confidence is growing. I am doubting myself less. Truely enjoying being alone. Finding my voice, with less fear.  I hope I inspire you to do the same. xxx
QUEER TAROT - 7 of Swords
We’re in an old growth forest, Squamish territory, what is now called colonial British Columbia. We’re sitting on a nurse log, with our local ginseng panex and we’re at Witch camp.
It is about that choice to step out and be yourself when group think and the over culture is crowding you, binding you, imprisoning you. Its the choice to be authentic and true to yourself. Its associated with Moon in Aquarius. 
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Queering the 8 of Cups

Astrologically I’m a triple Leo, so you’d never know that I’d pick this card. When it’s really hot in the summer, there are plants that go into hibernation; the grasses that die back, they’re still alive, but in hibernation so to speak, in a quiet phase; right after a forest fire has gone through, where everything is still in the forest, before it will all get born again. Full interview

I’ve designed the back of the Queer Tarot Cards to include as many of the queer community flags I could find and verify (still not 100% sure on all of them) and symbols that represent gender, and sexuality.  Here is a list of what I’ve used, which is correct to the best of my knowledge.  Please let me know if any corrections are required. CHECK OUT THE LIST OF FLAGS HERE:

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