|April 12, 2019
Dear Friends and Neighbors,
This past week I had a few days of R&R up in Seattle while Roger was attending a conference. I spent time struggling with the umpteenth rewrite of my manuscript, and sometimes I'll get so lost in a single word or phrase that it almost seems like I'm killing it with kindness--trying out one version and then another seeking the most efficient way to describe a thought, idea, feeling, or situation. Because it's a memoir, lots of family stuff comes up, much of it painful, and since my mother is now more than thirty years in the ground, my memory is not to be trusted and I wish with my entire being that I could go to my mother and say, "This is what I remember. What was it like for you?"
Last week we had a medium presentation, and I had several folks write and ask why I promoted and supported con men. I watched the John Oliver segment on mediums and I am sure there are truly unscrupulous practitioners only in it for a quick buck, though the mediums at the theater seemed anything but. Personally, I don't believe in an afterlife any more than I believe in astrology, though many of my friends do. However, in listening to the Q&A last week, while still not believing that communication with those who have passed over is possible, I could understand how this brought comfort to the folks who were participating. My mother died unexpectedly, and I never had the chance to say goodbye. Now, more than thirty years later, I have an entire lifetime of stories I want to share with her.
Sometimes we just need to feel like we've been forgiven or that we ourselves are able to forgive. We want to be reassured that we were and are loved. One of the hardest things I gave up when I quit being a Christian was the belief in heaven and hell. I wanted to believe that the unjust would live an eternity suffering for all the evil they have inflicted on this earth. I wanted to believe that my mother would be waiting for me and I would live an eternity basking in her love once again. It's excruciating to think that this is all there is, and from dust I came and to dust I will return. If I thought there was a way I could speak with my mother once again, would I do it? In a heartbeat. But since I can't, I take comfort in my mother's memory and I honor her mark upon my life by striving to be the kind, gentle woman that she would want me to be.
I used to be a roller coaster girl
jessica Care moore
(for Ntozake Shange)
I used to be a roller coaster girl
7 times in a row
No vertigo in these skinny legs
My lipstick bubblegum pink
As my panther 10 speed.
Nappy pigtails, no-brand gym shoes
White lined yellow short-shorts
Scratched up legs pedaling past borders of
humus and baba ganoush
Masjids and liquor stores
City chicken, pepperoni bread
and superman ice cream
Yellow black blending with bits of Arabic
Islam and Catholicism.
My daddy was Jesus
My mother was quiet
Jayne Kennedy was worshipped
by my brother Mark
I don’t remember having my own bed before 12.
Me and my sister Lisa shared.
Sometimes all three Moore girls slept in the Queen.
You grow up so close
never close enough.
I used to be a roller coaster girl
Wild child full of flowers and ideas
Useless crushes on polish boys
in a school full of white girls.
Future black swan singing
Zeppelin, U2 and Rick Springfield
Hoping to be Jessie’s Girl
I could outrun my brothers and
Everybody else to that
I used to be a roller coaster girl
Till you told me I was moving too fast
Said my rush made your head spin
My laughter hurt your ears
A scream of happiness
A whisper of freedom
Pouring out my armpits
Sweating up my neck
You were always the scared one
I kept my eyes open for the entire trip
Right before the drop I would brace myself
And let that force push my head back into
That hard iron seat
My arms nearly fell off a few times
Still, I kept running back to the line
When I was done
Same way I kept running back to you
I used to be a roller coaster girl
I wasn’t scared of mountains or falling
Hell, I looked forward to flying and dropping
Off this earth and coming back to life
every once in a while
I found some peace in being out of control
allowing my blood to race
through my veins for 180 seconds
I earned my sometime nicotine pull
I buy my own damn drinks & the ocean
Still calls my name when it feels my toes
Near its shore.
I still love roller coasters
& you grew up to be
of all girls who cld
WHAT'S HAPPENING THIS WEEK
See it 4/12 @ 4pm, 4/13 @ noon, and 4/14 @ 3:30pm. Tickets $7 - $10 suggested.
Wooooo....something scary coming our way just in time for Easter. Geeky fertility researcher, Peter Cotton, is bitten by a mutant rabbit and changes into the half-man/half-bunny Rottentail. What's a boy to do? Why, take a hippity-hoppity trip home of course! Peter begins a bloody killing spree of revenge that culminates in his childhood hometown of Easter Falls.
SURROUNDED BY IDIOTS
FREE skateboard films on Friday, April 12 @ 8pm.
Coming Saturday, Apr 13 @ 5:30pm, Another Portland Music Video Festival and Concert is an All Ages event set to feature 1.5 hours of Portland Music Videos from a variety of premier Portland Music Artists followed by three amazing bands - Skull Diver//Sam Densmore//Camp Crush! Another PMVF is a great way for music and video artists of all ages to share their work in a fun, local festival style environment. Doors at 5:15pm, Music Video Fest from 5:30 to 7, bands get started at 7:30. Tickets $15.
Next up in our Highbrow Hangover Series we've got THE SEAGULL on Sunday, April 14 @ 11am. In Russian with English subtitles. Tickets $10. You really get your money's worth, as the film runs for 3 hours and 45 min.
- 2 hours acts 1 and 2
- a 15 min intermission
- 1 hour 30 minutes acts 3 and 4
Anton Chekhov’s first of four major plays dramatizes the romantic and artistic conflicts between its four main characters: Boris Trigorin, a well-known writer, the ingenue Nina, the fading actress Irina Arkadina, and her son the would-be playwright Konstantin Tréplev. Yury Butusov's frenetic production abounds in an incredible freedom and openness, delving deep into the throes of artistic creation and the anguish of the artist who struggles to find a language of his own. This is not only a performance about the theatre, it is an anthology of the theatre that devours its children like monsters.
With the shuffling of actors' roles, you begin to sense something of a quadraphonic portrait of the creative personality, which demonstrates that greatness is precariously close to mediocrity while suggesting that the opposite is also true. Chekhov's characters are in the process of creating their lives or watching them fall apart, which, according to Butusov, may be a closely related activity.
Fundraiser for Skate Like a Girl this coming Sunday, April 14 @ 7pm. Suggested donation $10.
Compiling over 12 years of footage shot in his hometown of Rockford, IL, in MINDING THE GAP, Bing Liu searches for correlations between his skateboarder friends' turbulent upbringings and the complexities of modern-day masculinity. As the film unfolds, Bing captures 23-year-old Zack's tumultuous relationship with his girlfriend as it deteriorates after the birth of their son, along with the story of 17-year-old Keire who struggles with his racial identity as he faces new responsibilities following the death of his father. While navigating a difficult relationship between his camera, his friends, and his own past, Bing ultimately weaves a story of generational forgiveness while exploring the precarious gap between childhood and adulthood.
Post-screening raffle of prizes from Skate Like a Girl and supporting partners.
Monday, April 15 (TAX DAY--YUCK!) @ 7pm. FREE movie, taking donations for 211info PDX
This week's Clinton Street Resistance Series film shares the story of Andy Stitzer, a cheerfully geeky guy who is settling into middle age with his large collection of comic books, action figures, and collectable models. Andy works in an electronics store, and seems reasonably happy with his life. However, one day his friends and co-workers David, Jay, and Cal discover that Andy has a secret -- due to his rather severe jitters around women, Andy is still a virgin.
The evening's nonprofit partner is 211info PDX
, an independent organization that serves as the three-digit dialing code for information and referral to services like food assistance, parenting and early childhood resources and prenatal care.
Tuesday, April 16th, 7pm, donation based admission, only at the Clinton Street Theater.
This month Public Domain Xinema is putting some mystery back in your dull lives with the immortal legend of page and screen, Sherlock Holmes, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's legendary creation. This magnificent 1922 silent film production is based on the play by the great William Gillette, which is based on Doyle's original works. Best of all, it stars the one and only John Barrymore as the famously brilliant and bizarre detective. And better than best of all, this amazing silent classic will be accompanied live in the theater by the amazing Sonochromatic, Corvallis' unmatched silent film maestros.
As always, this is a donation based show, so bring nothing or something, just COME AND EXPERIENCE THIS! You likely won't get another chance for a long long time, if ever. A silent classic, with newsreels, cartoons and other treats from 1922, all with new original music performed live in the theater by Sonochromatic! You can't beat that.
Wednesday, April 17th, 8pm at the Clinton Street Theater! $5-8 suggested donation.
When a white rainbow is cast over a blood red night sky, a famous astrologer decodes the omen for the Emperor. He dies leaving part of his scroll undeciphered, and his favored pupil is driven mad by the tragic loss of his love, whom he searches the wilderness for. And he finds her… but perhaps she is a fox demon in disguise?
With brilliant colors, highly stylized and strange expressionist sets, and borrowing from Butoh, Kabuki, and Noh theater, Tomu Uchida’s THE MAD FOX is a fantastical, bizarre, and captivating fable about a love that is mad and hopeless, and the divinities and men that are crushed under its power.
Thursday, Apr 18 @ 7pm; tickets $12 ($14.36 with fee) in advance, $16 at door
A fundraiser for the nonprofit HOMEpdx, a small group that works to support neighbors living outside, mostly in the South downtown core and East-side Industrial. More than working to simply shovel food onto plates and coats onto backs, HOMEpdx strives to develop relationships and community within that setting, and tries to go to great efforts to affirm the value of each of their friends living on the margins.
This benefit screening and discussion of Stuart Eagon’s 2018 Essays of a City focuses on many of the actual people you might see regularly on the streets of downtown. The film provides a voice to those living among the bridges and buildings as houseless citizens speak their mind on subjects such as the absurdity of sleeping under window displays of bedroom sets.
Stay for a panel discussion post-screening with the filmmaker and some of the folks you meet in the film.
A Silent Auction will take place before film starts.
Clinton Street Resistance Series: JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR, April 22; FEAR AND LOATHING IN LAS VEGAS, April 29; LIAR, LIAR, May 6; THE IMAGINARIUM OF DR. PARNASSUS, May 13; LOST IN TRANSLATION, May 20; SEVEN SAMURAI, May 27.
One thing I'll say for him, Jesus is cool.
Projekt Presents The City of Lost Children on Friday, April 19 @ 9:30pm. "On visual terms alone, The City of Lost Children is something of a masterpiece, using state-of-the-art physical, optical and digital special effects to stretch cinematic boundaries." Jeff Shannon, Seattle Times
Film: Naila and the Uprising is hosted by Americans United for Palestinian Human Rights on Thursday, April 25 @ 7pm. When a nation-wide uprising breaks out in the Occupied Palestinian Territories, a young woman in Gaza must make a choice between love, family, and freedom. Undaunted, she embraces all three, joining a clandestine network of women in a movement that forces the world to recognize the Palestinian right to self-determination for the first time.
Unloaded Comedy -- Laugh Yourself Clean coming to the Clinton on Saturday, April 27 is a recovery based stand-up comedy show. A true comedy showcase, Unloaded Comedy includes several clean and sober comedians that get quite candid about their struggles with addiction in ways that will make audiences laugh. This show is sponsored by Serenity Lane, a private not-for-profit treatment center for alcohol and other drug addictions.
Friday, May 3 @ 6:30pm, it's our annual CST and Columbia Riverkeeper Pete Seeger Tribute and Sing-a-Long! Now in its sixth year, we are hosting on what would have been Pete's 100th birthday! We'll have a concert, story sharing, video of Pete, a sing-a-long, and even better yet, 100% of all ticket sales go to the necessary work of Columbia Riverkeeper (use of the theater is a gift from the Clinton).
Head to the Spring Edition of the Portland Night Market with over 175 vendors with great food, drinks, music, art, makers, merchants and community! All ages & FREE! April 12 + 13, from 4-11pm!
It's that time of year again! Mark your calendars because on Saturday, May 4th, Crafty Wonderland will fill a 60,000 sq. ft. hall at the Convention Center with over 225 of the best and brightest handmade vendors from the NW and beyond! We are excited to showcase such an amazing assortment to talent!
Lilac days in the Hulda Klager Lilac Gardens starts April 20th and goes through to Mother's Day May 12th. It's only a hop, skip and a jump up the I-5 north.
Want to do something nice for the "mom" in your life? Take them on a three hour scenic excursion along the Oregon Coast. The excursion offers breathtaking views of the Tillamook Bay, Pacific Ocean, and Nehalem Bay, and enjoy a catered lunch along the way.
Aurora Chorus sings of the critical state of humanity’s relationship with Earth on Sunday, May 19 @ 4pm. Join them as they honor our Mother and hold on to a hope of a better world for future generations. Featuring the West Coast premiere of director Joan Szymko’s setting of Wendell Berry’s poem “Look Out.”
Rose Festival Opening Night Fireworks is Friday, May 24th when the sky gets dark. You can hang out at the City Fair when it opens at 5pm.
Celebrate the Goonies in Astoria June 7th - 10th.
The 91st Annual Portland Scandinavian Midsummer Festival on Saturday, June 8, 2019 from 11 AM – 6 PM has everyting you want--Music, Dancing, Games, Nordic Food, Vendors, Beer Garden, Kids Area & More!
Celebrate the 35th annual Tigard Festival of Balloons June 21-23, 2019!
July is Oregon Craft Beer Month, so make plans to attend the Portland Craft Beer festival, a big outdoor party at the Fields Neighborhood Park. You'llfind the broadest selection of local beers, ciders and wine, all originating from Portland, Oregon.
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— Martin Luther King, Jr.